Sucking Chest Wound

[gothicotter]

I don't think that Charlie loves me any longer. He cares somewhat, but he doesn't love me. It hurts so damn much. I have a sucking chest wound that hurts physically everytime I inhale. I just want to let the air out of my lungs & not breathe anymore. I want this to stop hurting. I don't understand why a person wouldn't want to be loved. I would be a wonderful constant in his life. I'd be able to be there whenever he needed me, I'd be patient with his moods, I'd be there for comfort & companionship. I'd be there when things got hard & when they were going beautifully. I am the best thing that has happened to him & he's letting me walk out of his life. He's not going to realize his mistake until it's too late-- he's too stubborn & proud.

I am hurting so much that I cannot find the words to express it-- only my face twisted in agony, misery, weeping tears I cannot stop.